We have an appointment with the surgeon tomorrow at 8:40 a.m. to discuss test results.
The weight of I have lung cancer has quadrupled since yesterday.
Up until now, it hasn’t been real. None of it, not really. Yes, there have been lots of tests, but incidences of breathing weirdness have been…minor? Yeah. A dull ache, some congestion, some coughing. But not all the time, and often relieved by albuterol or Mucinex. I’ve been on my bike; yesterday we did a nice 5 mile walk. Those things make it hard to wrap my mind around Stage IIIa lung cancer. Then there’s the irrefutable proof of Mr. PET Scan: the glowing green mass in the center of my chest….
We’ve learned a lot. Friday night was the old American standby, family movie night, except our selection of movies was the 20 or so from the National Comprehensive Cancer Network (NCCN) about recent advances in lung cancer. The most helpful ones:
Know what your doctors know: Updates in Lung Cancer Part 4 – Treatment Planning https://www.youtube.com/watch?
Know What Your Doctors Know: Updates in Lung Cancer Part 5 – Newer Treatments
Immunology as part of treatment for lung cancer has made some significant advances. This is the most interesting and clear description of implications of a specific protein, PD-L1, I’ve found: https://www.gene.com/stories/understanding-pd-l1
I ended our movie night with a sense of hope that there are some real possibilities for me out there. Tonight? Ugh.
I’m scared.
Image by Gerd Altmann from Pixabay
Ack; never know what to say. Love you and scared for you, and in my head, I'm giving you the biggest, nearly-bone-crushing squeeze.
That's about the perfect thing to say. 🙃Thanks.